In search of some much needed reinforcement i went looking to my online inspirations realizing that i needed a boost. I seem to have lost my drive to obtain a goal i so desperately want. After hearing all of the hoopla about the Beck Diet solution i am willing to give it a shot. I have followed so many other ridiculous diets over the years that this can't possibly be the worst. I have attended Cognitive behavioural therapy in the past and it completely changed my life. i can only hope using the same approach to food will be the same.

Good thing I take care of myself better than i take care of this blog

So it has been a successful couple of weeks. The running total is 12 pounds.. IN COUNTING. its seems like a little and a lot all at the same time. I cannot wait to loose more only because then i get to get another tattoo. I am hoping that i will be able to succeed and loose another 3 pounds this week to make it an even 15.

I never thought i would actually say this but i enjoy my nightly exercise. I am continueing the run as far as i can and complete my 5km with walking since i cant run it all yet. but i want it so badly. I want to be able to run the 5 km more than anything else right now. More than loosing weight, more than anything.